Surgery or not ....

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Bit of a long story so get your cuppa and a biscuit .... Last March my huge horse (clydesdale) Foxbar pulled my right shoulder out of the socket , went to hospital said just bruised and it'll be fine . 5 weeks later it was still very sore went back to hospital they xrayed it to find I had factured my collar bone and also ripped the bone from the muscles and bust a tendon and ligament damaged, so right facture starting to heel cant do anything I know physio Sent me to physio and he was making me pull little weights, put my arm behine my back by this time I want to be sick and am in agony told me it aint that bad!!!! Sacked him went private after 10 months still not getting better now Ive got an appointment to see the surgeon on 29th March about the high possibility of another operation and to be honest I put up with the pain I still have and would like it fixed but during the last 15 years I've had 13 operations and have died on the table the last 3 major ops so im now scared if truth be known and they cant do it with a local either any advice or am I just being a bit of a wimp.